hadthehighground | Duplicity IC Inbox

In some ways. I think it depends what the cause is, and why you're doing it. Things were different with Saw and his group then with the Rebellion. I swore I'd never fight for them after Saw left me. But eventually even Saw and the Rebellion didn't see eye to eye. He was deemed to extreme even for them.

Cassian seems alright. For as much as one can be here. He's a submissive. Trying to adjust.

That doesn’t surprise me really. He seemed extreme to us as well, and I think even more so after his sister was killed.

It will be hard for him, I’m sure. Just as it was for me. Though I did have some help.

Are you going to contract with him?

I'm glad I could. I didn't know anyone or have anything when I wound up here a year ago. It doesn't need to be that hard on everyone.

I don't know. I'm not sure if Cassian is the type to take offered help. We mostly just talked about home.

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No it doesn’t. Though it’s especially hard for submissives, particularly if you’re used to being independent. Which sounds like might be the case for him.

It may be best to give him some space and allow him to figure things out on his own. Though making yourself available if he needs you.

I can’t imagine what that’s like. Especially for people like us who have already lost so much.

I was thinking that. I’d be there for him if he needed me, but I didn’t want to take any sort of choice away from him. Not with how this place is so restrictive and... everything else that it comes with. The Empire is one thing, but this is another form of oppression altogether.

Actually, for me I’m in a far better situation here if you can believe that. But I’m certain I’m in the minority as far as that goes.

Though he will need to make a contract at some point in the near future. You are well within your right to do so, though I think it would be good to know where we all stand should that become a possibility. It will change things for all of us.

I know, but that's what I mean. Cassian and I never had much either. He grew up fighting for the Rebellion. We are a lot alike in many ways.

That's why I wanted to tell you he was here. I'm not the best at any of this, and I don't know what's going to happen, but contracts can be very loose. I don't know what he's going to want or where he's going to want to live, but even with all of that, it doesn't change how I feel about you.

I see. And do you think he will help you fight here as well?

Then only time will tell, I suppose. Regardless, I’m glad that you say that. I wouldn’t want to come between you and someone else you care for. But I admit I would be rather lost without you I think.

Cassian is an intelligence officer for the Resistance. He's been fighting since he was 6. I'd be more surprised if he didn't.

It's not like that. I mean. I don't know what it's like. We have a complicated relationship. [Obi, you know how she is with emotions. She certainly hasn't begun to figure it out with Cassian when it took her over three months to say 'I love you'. And she didn't even say it first, not having figured it out until the moment he said it.]
You wouldn't though. I'd make sure of it. Whatever might happen. Or it might now. I honestly don't know. But I certainly couldn't do that to you. I know what it's like to be left behind like that.

Then fighting is certainly in his nature. The fact that both of you were forced to fight so young is tragic. Such a thing would never have been if the Jedi had never fell.

[He knows, but it’s because feelings are a complicated thing that it’s best to talk about it and not have any misunderstandings.]

I know, and I do trust you. Though there are his feelings to consider as well.

If the Empire never rose, there wouldn't be anything to fight. At least not on this scale.

I suppose you're right. It's just... complicated. [And it's strange to try and pinpoint these emotions. Cassian is her captain, but it's not like she was ever formerly trained. She was sort of forced into it in the beginning, threatened to be put right back in the Empire's hands. And then Cassian tried to kill her father. And then her father did die.

But feelings aren't exactly logical. And there's enough counterpoints in there. And she knows something is there. Enough to make her question it. There's something that just draws her to him even if it's frustrating and trying to prove him wrong. Or right. So she doesn't even remotely know how to go about 'considering his feelings'.

But that is the best advice to give her, because really she hadn't considered how he felt about all of it either. Including what to do about being here.]

Feelings are never not complicated, my dear. It never gets any easier either, I’m afraid.

I would like to meet him. Have you told him about me?

The whole situation is complicated.

No, but not because I didn't want to. We didn't talk a lot about everything that has happened here for me. It all seemed like a lot at once.

[Just as much for her.]

I suppose it is.

That is understandable, and wise. Best not to put it all on him at once since he only just arrived.

Though if there is anything I can do to help, please ask.

I will though. No doubt the subject of submissives and Dominants will come up.

Thank you, Obi-Wan. For your understanding as well. [She barely knows how to navigate her own feelings, let alone this.]

Of course, Jyn. After all, if we don't support each other here, who else will? No one should be alone in this place.

Otherwise, I hope your day is going well. I will see you at home this evening.

[She was alone here for far too long. But she doesn't comment on that, because it's something that she's tried to spare others, Obi-Wan and now Cassian.]

I'll be home in a bit. See you soon.

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